filing cabinet ok so my swelling has almost completely gone down. that makes me happy. also the bruising is almost gone and my speech is improving. and…i can almost bite down completely. solid food is nearing. got some bad news yesterday. david informed me yesterday afternoon that kayla omara, one of 'the twins' and a member of the goodrich cross country team was killed in a car accident tuesday night. her twin sister and another girl on the team are in the hospital in critical condition. that is so sad considering how young she was and what a promising career she had ahead of her. i just hope both kaitlyn and danielle can make a speedy and full recovery. since david has befriended most of the goodrich cross country team, i went over to svsu last nite to see him run and to see how he was doin. hes still tryin to face the reality that she is gone. however he still did well, so it didnt seem to affect his running. talk to sarah last night, that literally made my week. i hadnt talked to her in almost week because she was gone. ive missed her so much. i havent seen her in a month, so that just makes me miss her more. once this tournament gets over with, im goin to see her. i dont care what they all said about preserving my car's life, i will go and see her, that is…if she wants to see me. i mean, i dont wanna drive 2 or 2.5 hours (depending where i start) just to find out she doesnt wanna see me. oh guess wha? my least favorite holiday is coming up…valentines day. i know, i know, i have sarah why should i hate valentines day. its just that i dont like these hallmark holidays. i admit im guilty of contributing to the holiday by purchasing crap from hallmark. but the more i thought about it, u can still let someone know you love them w/o chocolate, teddy bears, cards, and what not. its just that hallmark wants you to think materials = love. i think the best way to spend valentines day, is to just be w/ your loved one on that day, no hallmark items needed. hey___i wonder if i could do that, instead of investing in stuffed bears, invest it into gas money to make a pilgrimage to holland the weekend after the tournament. i wonder if sarah would go for that. someone once told me, 'woman like the material things.' i dunno, id much rather do my idea. but that is, if she wants to see me. i mean maybe she doesnt. i doubt it, but that would really suck. ok im gettin the caffeine shakes so its time to stop typin and calm down. im gonna take a shower, that calms me down. im out